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Skin Deep

When I was about 4, I knew there was something different about me, because people would look at me and then look away. But I wasn't sure what it was until I started kindergarten and the kids started calling me tomato face and strawberry head and asking me where I got the red spot on my face.

You see, I have what the doctors call a hemangioma, a port-wine birthmark stretching up my neck and across my face. All through elementary school other kids teased me about this big red blob. It really hurt because I couldn't help looking that way anymore than a kid born with only one arm or a big nose can help being who he is.

The doctors say my birthmark can cause emotional and physical trauma. The disfiguring red stain can have a bad effect on a person's self-esteem. I didn't need to go to medical school to know that. I live with it. I make sure I always walk on the left side of girls so they can't look up and see this red growth on me. When I hear them laughing, I figure it's at me.

Once people get to know me, it's not so bad. Like my mom always tells me, you can't judge a book by its cover; it's what's inside that counts. But I've discovered that a lot of kids judge by appearance and don't bother to get to know the person underneath. I've probably heard “You're really nice” a hundred times as though the person is surprised that someone who looks like me could be nice. I've always tried harder than most people to be friendly, because I know better than most how crummy it feels to have your feelings hurt for something that's beyond your control.

In the past, doctors treated hemangiomas with radiation and surgery that really didn't work very well. But now there's a new surgery that uses thermal energy that does work. I'm scared to have surgery. Who isn't scared of surgery? But I'm happy, too, because I want to get rid of this birthmark. It makes me think a lot about other kids now. Kids who aren't as lucky as I am who are going to have to live with their birthmark or birth defect for the rest of their lives. It would be OK if people wouldn't treat us as though we are different, like there's something wrong with us that might be catching. We're all the same on the inside whether we're in a wheel chair or limp or have a huge red birthmark covering our heads. We all have dreams and want to fall in love and like to hang out with our friends.

I know from my own experience how bad it feels to catch people staring at you and then have them look away quickly, like you caught them stealing or something, or to see people staring at you and whispering. I'd rather have people just say hi and smile. I'll always smile and look at people who are different from me and not pretend I don't see them because the way they look turns me off. I'll never judge a person by the way he looks. After all, we're all created in God's image.

It would be nice if we could get to know the person underneath, the real person, before we even got to see how he looked. I bet our friends would look a lot different than they do now. I guess that's why I'll never forget what my mom says about books and their covers. I don't want to miss out on what might be a great friendship just because I don't like the way a person looks.

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